so-- i got in the newspaper..ahh

alright man--so this started off sorted small--and got bigger--- and then weirder--- one thing- i have been 'in-mind' framing this event in the wider contexts of the basic point that smaller movements seem to be making bigger impacts on how we do things nowadays --

-but the text part of that context keeps getting the brush off because i literally have been non-stop with the event part of my event----- so i had the sewing machine people back out-- my main like showcase people back out--- but as that is happening-- i am getting more attention--
--the montessori school loved the idea--so they have come together to help--and i have some more volunteers-plus more people coming--
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i have sewing machines-- and definitely got kids projects down--but my 'support staff'--flaked out so im doing this fairly solo style

-as we all know--i am not a great public speaker--and part of my trouble had been articulating things right before i got materials to--and well- apparently i said somethin that made sense

cuz---- i just did an article for the High Country Press--- it will be on shelves Thursday---
i have no clue what i sound like so - im a little freaked out--but they were cool-- the girl is a freelancer and she was super nice --and publicity is great---

--but i swear --on this thing-- i totally had stuff locked in-early---other than press--but now i got some press-- is when stuff is kinda up in the air--

--- Now ---i can say- it will be good in many--probably most aspects-- but i really wish people would come through on the commitment portion---
---cuz i had someone who was going to help with advertising and everything- but yeah -not so much-

--i am proud of myself in the sense i've been keepin on keepin on-- but God almighty- i did not entirely realize that the one thing i was going to be doing the most--is the one thing i am most terrified of--- -- PR--and Media mess--- i have no desire to be the centre of anything-- but i mean really it is good--

--originally my only goal was to have at least a representation of what this experience is supposed to do --and explain how other projects like it have worked in the past---well now---theres just a bit more pressure for it to be cool

-- and for the article thing-- in anticipation of what they would ask--- all i could think of was--so people say--
"when life gives you lemons, make lemonade- well-- it has still been yet to be said that life ever threw anyone --the sugar or a freakin' juicer--- so sometimes-- it may be good and well that we are a society with a ***t-ton of lemons (clothes/industrial waste)--- but if we dont know what to do with them or lack tools to do what we wish we could---well --you cant do alot except maybe bleach stuff:/...

--or what if the problem is life wont throw ya the lemons-- and youre the one person who'd take them gladly-- cuz you are great at lemonade--and you can make a ton to share---but as great as youd be at it-- its just a no go

---the point being--- that someone needs to match those people up--- preferrably the stupid jerk who made that statement--- i mean its good and well to try to 'throw ideas out there od what we all should do---but the fact is-- someone has to take the initiative to show them how to do that---so this event is like that----- instead of just of just fanticizing about what people could or would do --if--------
--like save money but not go to walmart
--combat consumerism for its own sake and keep down the waste it creates
--or spend more time with their family--and maybe one day actually meeting their neighbors
--be creative

-----this is the opportunity to do all that-- help the world---share and have fun with people-
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(so i did not say any of that--about the lemons)-- i do think i spit out something about that book stone soup, randomly though...

--but my writing this is to make the point that -- we al have different things to bring to the table--its just lots of people dont know what they really have is worth anything--- and if events like this-- can show people-- how cool it is to do more than just recycle cans--because there is more than one way ---and that they really do matter----well that's a good thing--

---so far though--- people love the idea --but keep backing freakin out-- they hope it goes well though...

-- honestly-- i think it will -- i mean i'm running the 'Hey --its me'--make a multicultural hand puppet booth--oh yeah--


and im following kelly's advice--and getting the 'runner/sorter' volunteers from the school court thing--- cuz i bet a ton of people have to do hours still.

--and i will be postering the crap out of everything this week-

some updates and rambling about making a webpage finally

k so-- i am still moving forward-- its been a bit hard to publicize my event- cuz i havent been really sure how i am supposed to do it- with the cc license thing--- because the head person- wendy tremayne-- well travels alot- which is totally understandable that she is busy -but --its left me hanging at times----well so i finally got the full okay to sponsor the montessori school-- and i threw the idea to their principal-- and he is really excited to be involved

i couldnt wait any longer to start really getting info to people-- so i made a facebook invitation- and am working on the website--- okay---so yes it is the crappy free template kind---i cannot figure out my contribute stuff--- its picky--and well as much as i would like to hand-make a site for this-- it was just taking too much time--

--So- to have something for people to look at -refer to-whatever--- i am making one-quick like-
---oh and I talked to Wendy--she is putting me on the calendar on her site finally-and also sending me all the stuff that would be making it much easier to publicize- and everything

--so by next week i can reformat what i am doing now in the cheesy generic way-into something a bit sleeker-
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-cuz even though i did the invite thing first--and its really clumsy--people are responding-- and so far-- i am slowly gaining my volunteer base--( i am recovering from some 'definite yes people-backing out)--but its cool though- i am waiting on the word from a 'master seamstress' --who is a friend of a friend
---but
there's her as a possibly--but also i am realizing that connections really are helping me--because i actually went to something that she hosted-- and i bought stuff- which sounds dumb to say---but the point is that- well i helped get her a commission and the whole thing has made it easier for her to remember me--and be willing to possibly help me out---
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-so anyways-- it seems that it feels like fits and starts -and slowly going-- BUT when it picks up --it really picks up---- So i'm making this site thing now

but as i said--i will be getting more input officially next week-- and with the school so excited-- i know that there is more of a base for support too---

--and it really is a ways a way in terms of when the event actually is for what it is- so i am confident it is going to go well( these kinda things always come together better late in the game than other kinds of events--cuz ya get the yardsale type crowd---and they only need a week -and a picket sign with an arrow---so since i am ahead on those terms--and confirming actual volunteers now- its still in the timeframe

--------------also ---ive been thinking alot about that--like how to frame this in a paper really-the whole---will people really come?-thing--and if not--did I fail?--------but its the world of nonprofit--and its my first event---so i am less 'banking on' it being specifically the biggest thing in town per se-since i am not an organization--im doing all the parts myself basically--so its going to be different than big city ones -but

-am concentrating on what good has come about so far-----but also the idea of how difficult it is to be successful at these things right away------so i was thinking about sort of chronicling -the process in the sense of--- what many organizations go through--
what the challenges/hurdles are---and what to learn from the experience to make the next thing better---
not seeing 'failure' but the learning process -especially for the sector i am kinda in---and what needs to be done to 'actually get a job' in a position that i truly want-
---like through this event stuff----i have found more programs that focus specifically on 'teaching kids through the arts-how to live more sustainably-and people who are really doing -- kid centered- eco-home/ school design --- and other similar things--and its exciting to know i have some place to go with all this- even if it isnt perfect--- i am learning alot -

so i am finding out more things--and also figuring out how to be more assertive ---and asking the right types of questions-- to move forward-- career-wise-- but also with this project---
--like i was surprised but it actually is not like a failure so far at all--- and people are responding to the effort--so i'm keeping on keeping on-- and now that i have the big hurdles cleared-- i am working out how to phrase things-- and be 'catchy' to get even more people to respond--
which will come in time--
since im finally getting my packet of stuff
-- i also have ideas for how to work it well for the school---and they like it--so far-----so yeah- um- i guess its getting easier-- even though it is intimidating as hell-- i think it could totally work out---
and i am putting up the link to my 'new web thing'---but its only just the start-- and
i do have a substantive plan -so as long as i keep on everything-and people get back to me in time- it'll be good-

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